it's been two weeks and a bit. time really flies. i can so see how people bury their head into work, only to look up and find that years have passed, and while they've moved on with their career, their life, heart and soul remains empty and never moving..

anyway, to be fair, i'm pretty impressed with some (: naturally there are those who irk me.. but i must say majority are beyond decent (: so it's all good.

hello friends (: come visit me for lunch!

this country is like a one ton demolishing ball to my self-esteem.

love and other drugs is definitely on my list of favourite films of all time (: anne hathaway is sexiness personified in that quirky, raw, natural sexy way. jake gyllenhaal's abit too muscley for me here :p but the chemistry between them is awesome. hahaha.

joyce! go watch the movie, the apartment that anne hathaway lives in is kinda like the loft of my dreams, just without the dirty fridge and walls :p haha.

mms (: that's so how i want to live my life in five years from now. doing something i love, a quiet but fulfilling life with someone i love, living for the right things, and just being me (:

haha, i like how angie described me tonight. free-spirited. tonight was lovely as usual (: teehee, i missed my angie baby!

everyone's seemed to have moved on to the next part of their lives, setting out the boxes to be ticked, and have already started going down the list..

and yet the thing is, while there are a few things i do know i really want in life, somehow it never occurred to me that they should occur now. there are so many things in life i still want to do. i like being free and owing no obligations to anyone. and even if i were to owe any obligations, i want the person i owe it to, to be the most amazing person i know. to share my crazy, ludicrous dreams that seem to constantly float higher and higher up to the skies. i'm just not that type to be happy to live a life that is all about doing what is right in life, or fulfilling the norms or ideals set out by society, especially this society. for all that i dislike about america, i seem to be seeking the american dream. the dream that anyone can dream, and if you work hard enough, that dream will one day be yours. and till i at least make a shot at that dream, i will always live with this perpetual dissatisfaction, hunger, yearning, caged-up feeling.

seriously, i never knew how much i appreciated rg girls, till one agreed with my ideas about marriage and made me feel less like an outcast today -.- i'm tired of people asking me about any domestic intentions. NO PLANS WHATSOEVER OKAY. the oppressive air is bearing down on me.

owen pallett was pretty good. but the precious hours after that was perfect (:

every night i come home, eat, crash. it's been the same two nights in a row :p and although it's only been two days, i don't really feel like much of a stranger there. so it feels good actually (: there are some lovely people there who are awesome.

although i'm not doing anything particularly interesting or new, it's good to have something to do, to have deadlines to meet. i rather like this whole research thing :p makes me feel like telders everyday. hahaha.

do come find me for lunch (:

this is the cutest thing (: